Orange
05-29-2008, 10:32 PM
I liked some girl. She was in one of my classes but I never ever even talked to her or came in any kind of contact with her. She probably didn't even know I existed. I stared at her in class and also from my "alone bench" across the courtyard from her during lunch time in hopes that maybe she would notice and know that I like her, and maybe she would come up to me and maybe ask me out (lolol)! But it never happened. So one day... school ends, the final class is dismissed. I leave into the hallway and walk towards to exit so that I can go to the parking lot where mom will be waiting to pick me up. On the way out, I see the girl at her locker. I get nervous, and just want to leave, but in my mind I know that I'll never resolve anything if I don't confront her, so I finally went up to her, shaking nervous, thinking I was doing some noble face-your-fears thing and asked her, "h-h-hi, ummmm..... d-d-d-do y-you l-l-l... l-like me?" She was confused. Apparently she was so confused that she gave back an answer that didn't really make sense, considering I never even talked to her ever before prior to this meeting; she said "err... um, as a friend, yeah..." and I said "h-hey, how about I come and sit next to you at lunch tomorrow...?" She responded, "if you can find me, yeah," and then her friend came up to her, looked at me with a "who the **** is this guy" face, and I said "see you tomorrow!" and walked outside and into my mom's car.
The next day, I didn't even bother looking for her. In fact, I sat all the way at the other side of the school from where she usually eats lunch, at a spot where nobody else in the school sits, folded my arms on my knees and laid my face down in embarrassment about what I had said yesterday. I never said anything to her again and she never acknowledged my existence any more than she had before. Well, except for this one time, later in the year-- she was sitting with some guy at a table (probably a boyfriend, and she kind of pointed me out to the guy, and they both laughed. I averted my eyes from them and then laid my face down on the table in shame.
I just had a flashback about it so I felt like telling about how much of a loser I am. I frequently have embarrassing flashbacks from my past, that's how much of a loser I am.
Or am I?
The next day, I didn't even bother looking for her. In fact, I sat all the way at the other side of the school from where she usually eats lunch, at a spot where nobody else in the school sits, folded my arms on my knees and laid my face down in embarrassment about what I had said yesterday. I never said anything to her again and she never acknowledged my existence any more than she had before. Well, except for this one time, later in the year-- she was sitting with some guy at a table (probably a boyfriend, and she kind of pointed me out to the guy, and they both laughed. I averted my eyes from them and then laid my face down on the table in shame.
I just had a flashback about it so I felt like telling about how much of a loser I am. I frequently have embarrassing flashbacks from my past, that's how much of a loser I am.
Or am I?