Nashua
07-03-2006, 01:30 AM
All righty, then. This is a one-shot that I might post at another forum.
Constructive criticism wanted, feel free to ask questions. No flames.
THIS CONTAINS SLASH, SO IF YOU HATE IT THEN PUSH THE BACK BUTTON ON YOUR BROWSER IMMEDIATELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You have been warned.
Disclaimer: I don't own Rahni. That is all.
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Their fierce devotion was like no other love. Through the good times and bad, they stuck through and never backed down from the challenge.
However, Tania has a secret that is burning inside of her, one that might break their relationship…and she can’t hold it back much longer.
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The way Rahni had made me feel was nothing…NOTHING to how she touched me and left me wanting more of her. Even after the initial shock of being touched, she would end up taking me higher than usual. I would usually end up tired and covered with sweat, feeling tired.
In a way, I was stuck in this bond…one that couldn’t release me unless I chose who I wanted more. Though I had been with Rahni for some time, my mind was focused on him. But my heart held a deep longing for Kazu…one even my strong mental fix on Rahni couldn’t overcome.
I began to leave Rahni’s bed at night, deserting my old love for that forbidden attraction. I would find Kazu just lying in her bed and I, in return, would lie beside her while holding her close to me. She would love me and I would love her back. It was only there at which I could release my frustration. My feelings for Rahni melted away at Kazu’s touch.
This went on for three months until Rahni suspected that I was leaving for somewhere. He presented me with an engagement ring and my mind went into overdrive, but my heart disagreed. If I had rejected it, he would know about Kazu for sure. I didn’t want that to happen. The nights were long and arduous. I would stay with him only because I was engaged to him, and I would reject his offers to make love to me. While he slept, I cried for her. I wanted her so badly, but I couldn’t have her because of Rahni. My mind and heart battled constantly over this.
Two weeks later, I could resist the lure no longer and decided to go to Kazu’s room. I walked in the room to find Kazu standing on the railing, about to jump to certain death. I pulled her to safety, only to see that she was overdosed on painkillers. I managed to keep her moving and take her to the hospital. I stayed with her until she got back on her feet, and that was when I made my decision…
2:25 PM: Hospital room
The door closed behind Rahni as I watched Kazu lie in her bed. Her eyes were open and there was an IV in her arm. She looked better than when I had last seen her.
I spoke quietly. “Are you all right, Kazu?”
“Yes.” She shifted in her bed.
“Do you need anything?”
“Not really.”
I walked in the direction of the door when Kazu stopped me.
“Tania.”
I looked at her with an inquiring look.
“Yes, Kazu?”
“Thank you. I deeply appreciate you saving my life. I would have jumped if it wasn’t for you.”
I sat down on the edge of her bed. “Why were you going to jump, anyway?”
Kazu looked down. “I thought you had left me for good.”
“It was Rahni…he had given me an engagement ring and held me down.”
“Why didn’t you reject him?”
“Face it, Kazu.” I looked at her, keeping my voice level. “If I had rejected it, then we would have been found out. I didn’t want him to know. I kept myself closed for you…Kazu.”
She nodded and kept staring at me.
“I have to tell you this. My mind and heart are battling. My mind is fixed on Rahni, but my heart longs for you. I want you to be with me, Kazu. Those nights that we had together…they weren’t for nothing.”
Kazu pulled me close to her. “Tania, I don’t want to be just a person on the side. I want all of you…I wish to be your other half.”
“Seriously, Kazu? You would risk it all to be with me?”
“You risked your life to save me. That alone is worth everything.”
I felt all the emotions well up in me. The frustration over them, the love for them, the nervousness of what would happen when I revealed my true lover’s identity…
“I can hold it all back no longer.”
As if on cue, Rahni walked into the room.
“Tania, we have to come on and prepare for the wedding."
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“See you later.”
I walked over to the door.
“Where are you going?” Kazu’s voice was sharp.
“To prepare for the wedding that we’ll have.”
I heard something fall onto the floor and turned around.
Kazu’s IV fell onto the floor and she yanked the medicine out of her arm.
“I guess what I shared was nothing to you, Tania. You led me on!”
“No, Kazu. Rahni is my true love and I want to spend the—What are you doing?”
She had walked to the window and tried to open the window.
“You broke me down. For all this, I wish…”
“Kazu, calm down!” Rahni yelled.
“I wish that you had let me drop to the ground, Tania.”
She floored me.
“What? I only did that because I didn’t want to see you die, Kazu! I had always loved Rahni from the day we met and nothing can change that.”
“So, all those nights that we had shared between us…you were wrong. They WERE for nothing. Absolutely nothing.”
“Nights?!” Rahni glared accusingly at me. “You did it with HER!?”
Ah, crap, I thought. Kazu’s pissed off, and Rahni knows…I’m dead.
“Yes, she did it with me. I thought that she would choose me for sure. Now she wants you, leaving me all alone.”
With one push, Kazu opened the sliding window and walked onto the balcony.
“Don’t help me, Tania. I suffered long and hard enough.”
She gave me a cold, hard look.
“You might as well give me that ring back.” Rahni continued the assault. “I’m not spending any more money on a lying, indecisive whore like you.”
“WHAT!?” I was lost for words.
“You lied to all of us. I thought you had loved me.”
“Bu-bu-but…I do!”
“If you had truly loved me, then you wouldn’t have helped her in the first place.”
“And leave her to die? No way! I loved you both!”
“If you loved me, then you would have ditched Rahni in the first place! But I see that you used me and soaked me dry, like I am a washcloth.” Kazu put one foot onto the railing.
I tried to run to the balcony to stop her, but Rahni held me back.
“Let her go, Tania. Look at what you’ve made her become.”
Kazu steadied herself on the railing and that was when I had a flashback from the last time.
That time, in the rain…I had caught her by her chest and I was scared of what would happen. I had called 911 and taken her to the ambulance. While she was in the ICU, I prayed for her, hoping that she would make it…that Kazu would survive.
What was I thinking?! I yelled at myself. This wasn’t what I had in mind.
All I wanted was to go home with Rahni, and now this happens.
In one second, I ran out of the room and into the hallway.
“Tania! Get back here!” Rahni yelled.
Instantly, a huge wave of guilt washed over me. I ran back to the room, only to find that she wasn’t there. “Kazu?”
Nobody answered me.
“Tania, she’s-”
I ran out to the balcony and looked down…
I saw a faint white hospital robe and Kazu’s body lying on the concrete ground FAR below.
“Kazu…”
My stomach immediately cramped up and I began to cry—hard.
The memories of my dear friend came flooding back to me. The first time we met, that time we were in the diner, our reunion…
The tears flowed harder. “Kazu!”
Becoming weak from crying, I literally fell onto the floor, my face covered in spit and tears.
I remembered her song, the way she would rebuff anybody that she hated…including those sessions that we had…everything came back to my mind.
I didn’t bother holding back the emotions…I banged on the floor, yelling my heart out for her, the love that we had shared…
“It should have been me, not you! I don’t deserve to live!”
“You most certainly don’t.”
Rahni’s voice stopped me—cold. I looked at him, though my vision was badly blurred.
“What…”
“You lost your dear friend, and now you’ve just lost your potential soulmate. I would hate to be you, Tania.”
I didn’t reply to his comment. Rahni turned and walked away, leaving me on the floor.
My head sank back on the floor as I kept crying for her quietly.
The memories of Kazu faded to a blackness…
Constructive criticism wanted, feel free to ask questions. No flames.
THIS CONTAINS SLASH, SO IF YOU HATE IT THEN PUSH THE BACK BUTTON ON YOUR BROWSER IMMEDIATELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You have been warned.
Disclaimer: I don't own Rahni. That is all.
--
Their fierce devotion was like no other love. Through the good times and bad, they stuck through and never backed down from the challenge.
However, Tania has a secret that is burning inside of her, one that might break their relationship…and she can’t hold it back much longer.
------
The way Rahni had made me feel was nothing…NOTHING to how she touched me and left me wanting more of her. Even after the initial shock of being touched, she would end up taking me higher than usual. I would usually end up tired and covered with sweat, feeling tired.
In a way, I was stuck in this bond…one that couldn’t release me unless I chose who I wanted more. Though I had been with Rahni for some time, my mind was focused on him. But my heart held a deep longing for Kazu…one even my strong mental fix on Rahni couldn’t overcome.
I began to leave Rahni’s bed at night, deserting my old love for that forbidden attraction. I would find Kazu just lying in her bed and I, in return, would lie beside her while holding her close to me. She would love me and I would love her back. It was only there at which I could release my frustration. My feelings for Rahni melted away at Kazu’s touch.
This went on for three months until Rahni suspected that I was leaving for somewhere. He presented me with an engagement ring and my mind went into overdrive, but my heart disagreed. If I had rejected it, he would know about Kazu for sure. I didn’t want that to happen. The nights were long and arduous. I would stay with him only because I was engaged to him, and I would reject his offers to make love to me. While he slept, I cried for her. I wanted her so badly, but I couldn’t have her because of Rahni. My mind and heart battled constantly over this.
Two weeks later, I could resist the lure no longer and decided to go to Kazu’s room. I walked in the room to find Kazu standing on the railing, about to jump to certain death. I pulled her to safety, only to see that she was overdosed on painkillers. I managed to keep her moving and take her to the hospital. I stayed with her until she got back on her feet, and that was when I made my decision…
2:25 PM: Hospital room
The door closed behind Rahni as I watched Kazu lie in her bed. Her eyes were open and there was an IV in her arm. She looked better than when I had last seen her.
I spoke quietly. “Are you all right, Kazu?”
“Yes.” She shifted in her bed.
“Do you need anything?”
“Not really.”
I walked in the direction of the door when Kazu stopped me.
“Tania.”
I looked at her with an inquiring look.
“Yes, Kazu?”
“Thank you. I deeply appreciate you saving my life. I would have jumped if it wasn’t for you.”
I sat down on the edge of her bed. “Why were you going to jump, anyway?”
Kazu looked down. “I thought you had left me for good.”
“It was Rahni…he had given me an engagement ring and held me down.”
“Why didn’t you reject him?”
“Face it, Kazu.” I looked at her, keeping my voice level. “If I had rejected it, then we would have been found out. I didn’t want him to know. I kept myself closed for you…Kazu.”
She nodded and kept staring at me.
“I have to tell you this. My mind and heart are battling. My mind is fixed on Rahni, but my heart longs for you. I want you to be with me, Kazu. Those nights that we had together…they weren’t for nothing.”
Kazu pulled me close to her. “Tania, I don’t want to be just a person on the side. I want all of you…I wish to be your other half.”
“Seriously, Kazu? You would risk it all to be with me?”
“You risked your life to save me. That alone is worth everything.”
I felt all the emotions well up in me. The frustration over them, the love for them, the nervousness of what would happen when I revealed my true lover’s identity…
“I can hold it all back no longer.”
As if on cue, Rahni walked into the room.
“Tania, we have to come on and prepare for the wedding."
---
“See you later.”
I walked over to the door.
“Where are you going?” Kazu’s voice was sharp.
“To prepare for the wedding that we’ll have.”
I heard something fall onto the floor and turned around.
Kazu’s IV fell onto the floor and she yanked the medicine out of her arm.
“I guess what I shared was nothing to you, Tania. You led me on!”
“No, Kazu. Rahni is my true love and I want to spend the—What are you doing?”
She had walked to the window and tried to open the window.
“You broke me down. For all this, I wish…”
“Kazu, calm down!” Rahni yelled.
“I wish that you had let me drop to the ground, Tania.”
She floored me.
“What? I only did that because I didn’t want to see you die, Kazu! I had always loved Rahni from the day we met and nothing can change that.”
“So, all those nights that we had shared between us…you were wrong. They WERE for nothing. Absolutely nothing.”
“Nights?!” Rahni glared accusingly at me. “You did it with HER!?”
Ah, crap, I thought. Kazu’s pissed off, and Rahni knows…I’m dead.
“Yes, she did it with me. I thought that she would choose me for sure. Now she wants you, leaving me all alone.”
With one push, Kazu opened the sliding window and walked onto the balcony.
“Don’t help me, Tania. I suffered long and hard enough.”
She gave me a cold, hard look.
“You might as well give me that ring back.” Rahni continued the assault. “I’m not spending any more money on a lying, indecisive whore like you.”
“WHAT!?” I was lost for words.
“You lied to all of us. I thought you had loved me.”
“Bu-bu-but…I do!”
“If you had truly loved me, then you wouldn’t have helped her in the first place.”
“And leave her to die? No way! I loved you both!”
“If you loved me, then you would have ditched Rahni in the first place! But I see that you used me and soaked me dry, like I am a washcloth.” Kazu put one foot onto the railing.
I tried to run to the balcony to stop her, but Rahni held me back.
“Let her go, Tania. Look at what you’ve made her become.”
Kazu steadied herself on the railing and that was when I had a flashback from the last time.
That time, in the rain…I had caught her by her chest and I was scared of what would happen. I had called 911 and taken her to the ambulance. While she was in the ICU, I prayed for her, hoping that she would make it…that Kazu would survive.
What was I thinking?! I yelled at myself. This wasn’t what I had in mind.
All I wanted was to go home with Rahni, and now this happens.
In one second, I ran out of the room and into the hallway.
“Tania! Get back here!” Rahni yelled.
Instantly, a huge wave of guilt washed over me. I ran back to the room, only to find that she wasn’t there. “Kazu?”
Nobody answered me.
“Tania, she’s-”
I ran out to the balcony and looked down…
I saw a faint white hospital robe and Kazu’s body lying on the concrete ground FAR below.
“Kazu…”
My stomach immediately cramped up and I began to cry—hard.
The memories of my dear friend came flooding back to me. The first time we met, that time we were in the diner, our reunion…
The tears flowed harder. “Kazu!”
Becoming weak from crying, I literally fell onto the floor, my face covered in spit and tears.
I remembered her song, the way she would rebuff anybody that she hated…including those sessions that we had…everything came back to my mind.
I didn’t bother holding back the emotions…I banged on the floor, yelling my heart out for her, the love that we had shared…
“It should have been me, not you! I don’t deserve to live!”
“You most certainly don’t.”
Rahni’s voice stopped me—cold. I looked at him, though my vision was badly blurred.
“What…”
“You lost your dear friend, and now you’ve just lost your potential soulmate. I would hate to be you, Tania.”
I didn’t reply to his comment. Rahni turned and walked away, leaving me on the floor.
My head sank back on the floor as I kept crying for her quietly.
The memories of Kazu faded to a blackness…